I hate my life…
Your’s was the type I was supposed to end up with.
I should have stuck through things,
But now I’m stuck doing things.
Things I said I would never do,
My life, I can honestly say, is not the best.
I don’t do much in the way of anything,
And I can’t stay away from you.
These are things my heart feels,
Not things my mind thinks.
I miss you Puppy.
That’s why I play these games.
Although unintentional, they’re aimed to kill both you and I.
You may think I’m the worst person alive,
But I think that eight times more.
I feel it in my heart,
But there’s really no way of not hurting you.
I aimed to please everyone,
Instead I pleased only one.
He chose her first,
But I think I know where his heart is.
You’re my back up lover,
I am ashamed to say this.
But you are my love.
True and strong.
I don’t know how else to put it.
I love you and I cannot hurt the ones I love.
That’s why I’ve kept you around for so long, and why I cannot let you go.
I know it seems selfish, it truly is.
But you are my heroine, and I the addict.
Ironic, it was the other way around just a few months ago.
Puppy, I am truly so very sorry for my selfish ways.
There’s no way of explaining myself other than the fact that I love you.
Love everything she’s wearing, and her hair.
Everyday I feel as though I get less and less from you.
You tell me that my work is appreciated, but there’s no showing it.
I clean the house, I clean our room, I do the laundry, I cook, I look after the animals.
I even keep your mother company.
While you provide the funds, I keep the home.
One day, I’ll just stop to see what happens.
You won’t notice at first, but the chores will start to pile up.
And when you do notice, I’ll finally be happy.
I want to come crawling back to you,
To that insane comfort of your touch,
To the love of your embrace.
I miss you more than you could imagine,
More than I can take.
The less I think about it, the more it hurts.
I wish I could dispose of my heart’s growth spurts.
The way I see it, you’re through with me
Although you said that would never be.
I successfully pushed you away
Along with my heart, you’re no longer here to stay…
My kitten sucks on my lip! Lol he fell asleep halfway through. XD
This is Chuck(:
My kittens are the best